A lesson – of 2023 and years to come

The last day of 2023. I spent half the day obsessively thinking about this friend whom I recently patched up things with, because he abused me a year ago. The reason I feel that I must not completely alienate someone, especially the ones I love, is because nobody’s perfect and when I point out I feel bad, if they agree, then forgiveness is something that lightens my conscience. Anyhow, recently an incident in my city led to our discussion wherein he was very happy about something that I felt was bad and not serving the purpose. Him defending the whole motive and action so passionately just revealed a dark side of his. Some said always keep distance from people they will hurt you, others said this is why you need to learn compromising and adjusting in the reql world.

Perhaps the most essential thing, friendship or any inter personal relationship need not be successful always all the time. This is my lesson from 2023. this was probably my most happening year, with too many people entering and leaving. Some new faces, some old. New faces leave me after teaching something about what kind of people I must allow. Old faces coming back to tell me exactly why I had to let go of them in the first place. My regret is, that amidst these entries and exits and me dealing with the grief or anger or shame or even sorrow that accompanied, i forgot to care for the ones that always stayed. Understood me. Saw me. Loved me. And mainly, humanised me.

I am leaving my regrets here, with 2023. With 2024, all I want to do is, not allow any of the thoughts regarding someone that’s not me, affect me to the point that I cannot function. It’s a difficult thing for me, but not impossible. I know it’ll take some time but that seems like the right thing for my mental health as well as something that would allow me to manage my life. Also, I couldn’t talk enough about this space that I dearly missed writing at.

2024 and the years to come, could become beautiful with me sharing my stories. More on this soon. Anyhow, hello dear fellow bloggers. Thank you for reading till now. How are you?

Will you?

what would two souls do to remove the distance between them? – a poem

friendships

Close friends are truly life’s treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. With gentle honesty, they are there to guide and support us, to share our laughter and our tears. Their presence reminds us that we are never really alone.

Vincent Van Gogh

Chitu – Indian Ocean

A song that stayed with me during one of my album revisits was the folk and kanjira heavy Chitu, by Indian Ocean.

sacrifice

the cloud’s sacrifice – a poem

But why ?

But, why?

With millions of blogs for billions of humans on this planet, why one more?

oppression

Human beings are so made that the ones who do the crushing feel nothing; it is the person crushed who feels what is happening. Unless one has placed oneself on the side of the oppressed, to feel with them, one cannot understand.

Simone Weil, Lectures on Philosophy